RelationshiT

I’ve been thinking a lot lately, A LOT.  Last week at the church pastor was talking about relationships and how to maintain them even when we think the other person is wrong etc etc, but you see if you replace the P at the end with T relationship is Relationshit which is true in most of cases regardless how saintly you are. People always dump crap on you, and by people I mean your close relatives (now you know who they are). Certain thing happened to me, My dad called me to say that they were passing my inheritance (which is a house I helped them to build) to my son. Now let me be clear, everything that I work for is for my son, I want him to have the best in life, but when my Dad said that he was writing the ‘will’ in my son’s name IT HURT! IT BLOODY HURT. I asked him if he was sure that I was going to die soon, he had no reply to that. He called me back after a while to say that they will write it in my name.

Second incident being my sister who ‘couldn’t make it to my surgery to Bombay’ because of ‘all those reasons’ has gone to stay with her sister-in-law because her brother-in-law is undergoing dialysis IN BOMBAY!. That made me realize that nothing is wrong with the world, but I am evil, may be I don’t see it, but the world thinks that I am a waste and should be discarded at the earliest. It also made me realize that no matter how many gifts you take to people  who are not your immediate family they can never be your own, be it your sister, mother, father.

After all that crying for couple of days (which I believe is happening because of  mood swings which could be the side effect of chemo) I am done with all relationships. DONE !