Shit happens…

So yesterday was mad, I mean I was really pissed at the Jupiter Hospital radiation department. I was pretty sure that I had reached the hospital at 3.30pm. After waiting for 2 hours for my turn (which should have been at 3.40 pm) as I entered the room, this lady asks me ‘Mr Lobo, why are you late today?’ And I was like ‘WTF’? . I told her that I have been waiting since 3.30PM, but to my utter surprise she ‘accuses’ me of coming late and to rub salt to the wound says that she ‘saw’ me entering at 4PM. I was so furious, so furious, I told her that I had no reason to lie to her and I know what time I was at the hospital.

As I was lying facedown on the machine. “I COULDN’T PRAY’. I could feel myself burning in anger, mad bad anger !!! . then I realized that my anger wasn’t helping me in anyways and I had to calm down during radiation. But despite of my desperate attempt to calm down and pray, somehow I couldn’t manage my anger and all I wanted to do was give her a piece of my mind when I got down. But… she wasn’t there, guess she left during my turn.

So end result… I was really exhausted by the end of the day as i was unable to empty my feelings. I have myself to blame for not controlling my anger. Anyways, today I have recovered fine.

I had to undergo a blood test this morning, Result will be out on Monday. Kinda worried about the damage chemo tablets has done to my liver. but then putting my trust in God. I know everything will be fine.